Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorius triumphs, even though checkered by failure… than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat. Theodore Roosevelt

BREAK.COM - Recently DEA agents raided a home of Meth dealers in suburban Mexico and discovered $207 million cash piled in a back bedroom.

What would you do if you had that kind of money. Statistics suggest that if you’re poor and uneducated about money, when you come into a lot of money all at once you usually end up losing it all.

These are apparently pictures of a new home which Britney Spears has recently purchased.

Someone asked why would anyone buy such an elaborate home just because they can afford it. I suppose the answer to that is because they can. But is it sensible? People need space. But do you need so much space in your home that it can take you as many as 5 minutes to walk from one room to another? Do you need so much space on your property that it can take you 10 minutes to walk from one point to another?

I haven’t had money on the mind for a few weeks now. Life got in the way of my ambition. Depression took control of me, and it did what depression does. It drained me to the point where I could not focus on anything but the fact that I was depressed. Needless to say, my work has suffered during this time, which naturally means that I haven’t been making any money to speak of. Yet, on Saturday I went out and purchased some furniture, and in so doing, accumulated debt in the amount of $1,154.

Did I really need a sofa set and dining set? I managed to go from July 2005 up until Saturday September 8th 2007 with no furniture. I survived. It hasn’t been harmful to my health to have to sit on the floor. Why did I suddenly decide at a time when I was going through severe depression, largely on account of not making the kind of money I need to be making, to go out and buy furniture I refused to buy when I had more money coming in? Stupidity? Now I have credit card debt over $2000. I’ve been so good with my credit since getting this credit card, making sure to keep my balance low and manageable. Several years ago, I made major mistakes that messed up my credit rating and that of a sibling who had co-signed with me so that I could get the card in the first place. I managed to get myself out of debt. Now here I am, making irrational decisions that could cause me to ruin my credit again.

Seriously, did I need the furniture? Sure, I was starting to get back pains; but I could just as easily have gone to goodwill and found an old easy chair or something. I didn’t need to pick up a brand new sofa set and a dining set on top of that. It wasn’t necessary; but what’s done is done. Now, I need to figure out a schedule for paying on the card to bring the balance back under $500. My next payment on the card is due October 4th. I want to try to pay at least $350. The minimum due is $18; but I never pay the minimum due. I always try to pay at least $100. If I can afford to pay the balance in full I pay the balance in full. Unfortunately the balance has gone well over what I can manage with the furniture purchase. If I am able to pay $500 per month it will take me 4 months to bring it back under $500.

I really need to get my act together emotionally because I’m in my 3rd month now of not making a substantial income and mostly on account of being too depressed to care. I’ve been so busy thinking about and worrying about things that have nothing to do with solving my money problems, going against my own philosophy of not allowing personal problems to thwart my ambition. I’ve been more or less just shrugging in defeat, telling myself there’s no point, there’s nothing I can do about anything. I guess that’s how poor people stay where they are. They just accept defeat; go with the mentality that this is all there is, that they can’t change anything about their circumstances anyway so why bother to try?